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Friday, January 14, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Sometimes We Have to be Selfish
Yeah. Even Christians. Sometimes you pray and pray, but it doesn't change other people, people who are determined to do things that are detrimental to themselves and to those around them - even the most innocent...but who steadfastly believe they aren't harming anyone or that their own choices and desires are all that matter. Sooner or later they learn but almost always after the damage is done...and when faced with someone thus determined day in and day out, stress is the natural result.
I started to look up articles on stress and health, stress and healing, etc. but the articles are too numerous to list. Let's just say that the effects of stress are known to be detrimental not only to the emotional well-being of people, but to the physical as well, and when one is trying to recover from physical trauma (such as a major surgery for example) or physical illness, healing is slowed by about 40% according to some of the sources I just read.
So sometimes, after an incredible battle has been fought for health, including heavy financial investments, it is time to say, "I cannot let this work against me and everything I've been fighting for." The toll on the innocent will be heavy, although delayed; the toll on those continually being lied to or treated without respect or consideration, day after day, week after week, month after month can only continue when it is allowed.
Then we reach a point where we realize. And have to make the decision that it has got to stop.
I started to look up articles on stress and health, stress and healing, etc. but the articles are too numerous to list. Let's just say that the effects of stress are known to be detrimental not only to the emotional well-being of people, but to the physical as well, and when one is trying to recover from physical trauma (such as a major surgery for example) or physical illness, healing is slowed by about 40% according to some of the sources I just read.
So sometimes, after an incredible battle has been fought for health, including heavy financial investments, it is time to say, "I cannot let this work against me and everything I've been fighting for." The toll on the innocent will be heavy, although delayed; the toll on those continually being lied to or treated without respect or consideration, day after day, week after week, month after month can only continue when it is allowed.
Then we reach a point where we realize. And have to make the decision that it has got to stop.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Ditto What I Wrote This Morning :)
Another good day. Periods of feeling like I couldn't get my breath but a rest helped each time. Babysat my 21MO grandson all morning and into the afternoon, we baked cookies and played. Did dishes (but couldn't finish d/t shortness of breath), had an afternoon nap, and spent a nice evening with my husband. A pretty normal day actually!
Tomorrow I plan to take hubby to work and then pick up my mom at the nursing home where she lives and get her hair done, maybe do lunch, if she's having a good day (lots of fluctuation with LBD!) and if I'm not babysitting - but I think my daughter said she isn't working tomorrow. Anyway, it will be like a normal day, if I feel as good as I've felt yesterday and today.
Also going to transfer a prescription to KMart and get my 25000 ($25) ShopYourWay rewards points! Can't spend them until my replacement card gets here (oops) but I ordered it a couple of weeks ago...shouldn't be long now...I love KMart.
Tomorrow I plan to take hubby to work and then pick up my mom at the nursing home where she lives and get her hair done, maybe do lunch, if she's having a good day (lots of fluctuation with LBD!) and if I'm not babysitting - but I think my daughter said she isn't working tomorrow. Anyway, it will be like a normal day, if I feel as good as I've felt yesterday and today.
Also going to transfer a prescription to KMart and get my 25000 ($25) ShopYourWay rewards points! Can't spend them until my replacement card gets here (oops) but I ordered it a couple of weeks ago...shouldn't be long now...I love KMart.
What a Difference a Day Makes!
It is now Tuesday morning. Yesterday I had almost no shortness of breath at all, and, although I got tired easily (I think I lost some ground in my healing process from the wrap surgery over the last week!) I was able to do pretty much everything I wanted to do. Just more slowly and with more breaks.
But the big thing is, I felt more normal than I have in I-don't-know-how-long! Certainly the last few years, when even "normal" days were painful and I had to be careful what I did and ate...but yesterday I ate what I wanted, nothing hurt me, and I did what I wanted, and nothing hurt me.
THIS is the start of the future that I have been looking forward to! I will continue to rest when tired of course (about in the middle of that 100-day stretch now), but my stamina I'm sure will increase as the days go on, and I can see what my future holds and it is all good!
But the big thing is, I felt more normal than I have in I-don't-know-how-long! Certainly the last few years, when even "normal" days were painful and I had to be careful what I did and ate...but yesterday I ate what I wanted, nothing hurt me, and I did what I wanted, and nothing hurt me.
THIS is the start of the future that I have been looking forward to! I will continue to rest when tired of course (about in the middle of that 100-day stretch now), but my stamina I'm sure will increase as the days go on, and I can see what my future holds and it is all good!
Monday, January 10, 2011
http://amplify.com/u/al7boTo get photos up on Facebook has always been a royal pain. First I had to take my memory card out of my camera, connect my external drive (where I keep my files) to my netbook, move the pictures to the external HD, crop/edit/resize them using a graphics program (typically gThumb for quick editing), then go back to FB, to my photo area, and finally upload. How many steps and clicks is THAT?? So many times I didn't even bother.Then I found Lunapic.com . What a TIME saver! When I want to upload a photo, I just put my memory card into my netbook's slot, open the photo with lunapic, do all of my editing, and it saves the result to FB for me! It also saves to other apps, which I don't use...but how cool is this?? I just had to rave about it because it makes the whole process very quick and easy, and I can't believe the laborious process I've endured all this time when lunapic was probably there all along. http://amplify.com/u/bl7c8
Starting to Feel Like a Whiner
Shortness of breath just seems to be a little worse every day. Today made it through church but felt like a wet noodle, when I got home, I got back into my jammies and spent the day in bed. Doesn't take a thing to get short of breath, just walking to the bathroom and back. Good thing my heart checked out ok so I don't have to worry about this pressure and chest pain that seems worse by the day along with my breathing...
So tonight I'm all anxious because I'm not getting better, and decided to take half of a 0.25 mg Xanax, per the doctor's instructions. Don't like how it's making me feel, like I gave up control of my wakefulness, and I know it will send me to sleep within minutes. Still anxious about the whole breathing/pressure/pain thing though. I don't think I'll take it again.
Since nothing was found to explain it, does that mean it's not real?
Nodding off now...g'night...
So tonight I'm all anxious because I'm not getting better, and decided to take half of a 0.25 mg Xanax, per the doctor's instructions. Don't like how it's making me feel, like I gave up control of my wakefulness, and I know it will send me to sleep within minutes. Still anxious about the whole breathing/pressure/pain thing though. I don't think I'll take it again.
Since nothing was found to explain it, does that mean it's not real?
Nodding off now...g'night...
Sunday, January 9, 2011
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