Pete found this today...really powerful stuff!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqMWvNlMo-4
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
In It, Not Of It
I've had this whole issue of being "in the world but not of the world" in my heart for quite some time now. I haven't arranged my thoughts in any cohesive pattern yet, and - as when we pray - they are mostly sensed rather than articulated in language. I just have things in my heart that I feel a need to write about...
My heart hurts deeply for people around me, people that I love, that God loves and for whom His love overflows through me, who are going through painful and difficult times in their lives. I want to talk to them about hope, and about trust, and share the things that give me comfort: that since I gave my life to God, He has control of all circumstances and outcomes; and that since He is my Creator, who knows me better than I know myself and has a special purpose for my life, I don't have to worry about why certain things happen, or what my future will hold, or how I can make things better. It is all His, and He has never let me down or caused me to stumble (although I've tripped myself up more than I care to remember!). But for someone who is of the vague "prayer works" mindset but really has no trust or commitment to God, who casually mentions "sending up prayers" but still maintains control of their own lives, and who has no 24/7 relationship with God through Christ - they don't, can't, get true comfort, and even joy, in the midst of their trials. To someone that's not in that "I am His and He is mine" relationship by the grace of God (not our own efforts) through the blood of Christ (opening up the door that sin had closed)...there can be no hope or comfort. The comfort the world offers is empty, how could I offer that to hurting people?
So what is the answer? God has it: "Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself, and our God and Father, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope by grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in every good word and work." 2 Thess. 2:16-17. Compare that to Job 21:34 “How then can you comfort me with empty words, since falsehood remains in your answers?” and you can see what I mean. "There, there now, things will get better" is so meaningless, once you've experienced, "But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 12:26-27. WOW!
This world will pass away, everything here is temporary. Those who are living for it can find no comfort in it. As much as that hurts my heart, I know that it hurts God's more, He loves every single one of His creation with a love we can't even begin to understand! So many, even among Christians, love the world more than the Kingdom, as is evidenced by their fear of death and the mindset, even in believers, of life (quantity of years on earth) at any cost. Why? Our time here is just the blink of an eye, just a tiny speck in an eternity that is bigger than the universe. Whether we are called Home when we're 40 or when we're 90, isn't going Home what it's all about? Working for the Kingdom (not our 401K or our retirement or a bigger house and 2 cars) while we're here, and when our work is done, to be rewarded by an eternity spent with the One we love and serve...there is great comfort in that!
That's what Jesus' words in John 17 are all about. We're here to share God's bounty of love, blessing, joy, and life with the world, but it's not about living here, it's not about prosperity or worldly success - it's about getting the job done and joyfully going Home, to the arms of our beloved Jesus, and taking as many as we can with us for He rejoices with every soul who finds its way home to Him. (See Luke 15) He doesn't want any of us to be lost: "...He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." (2Peter 3:9)
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." John 12:1-4 NIV
I have loved the world. I have lived for worldly reward. That is part of the human experience. If we have never seen the emptiness of a worldly life, we can't turn from it to the joy of a Christ-filled life. I praise God for the work He does through me now...I thank Him for the joy that stays with me as His Spirit lives within my heart and fills every pore of my being...I pray to be a vessel so He can use me...I offer up my body as a living sacrifice, living to be pleasing to God, not conforming to this world, but transformed (Romans 12:1-2)...and I look forward anxiously to the day when I can run into the arms of my beloved Jesus, the Source of all comfort.
My heart hurts deeply for people around me, people that I love, that God loves and for whom His love overflows through me, who are going through painful and difficult times in their lives. I want to talk to them about hope, and about trust, and share the things that give me comfort: that since I gave my life to God, He has control of all circumstances and outcomes; and that since He is my Creator, who knows me better than I know myself and has a special purpose for my life, I don't have to worry about why certain things happen, or what my future will hold, or how I can make things better. It is all His, and He has never let me down or caused me to stumble (although I've tripped myself up more than I care to remember!). But for someone who is of the vague "prayer works" mindset but really has no trust or commitment to God, who casually mentions "sending up prayers" but still maintains control of their own lives, and who has no 24/7 relationship with God through Christ - they don't, can't, get true comfort, and even joy, in the midst of their trials. To someone that's not in that "I am His and He is mine" relationship by the grace of God (not our own efforts) through the blood of Christ (opening up the door that sin had closed)...there can be no hope or comfort. The comfort the world offers is empty, how could I offer that to hurting people?
So what is the answer? God has it: "Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself, and our God and Father, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope by grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in every good word and work." 2 Thess. 2:16-17. Compare that to Job 21:34 “How then can you comfort me with empty words, since falsehood remains in your answers?” and you can see what I mean. "There, there now, things will get better" is so meaningless, once you've experienced, "But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 12:26-27. WOW!
This world will pass away, everything here is temporary. Those who are living for it can find no comfort in it. As much as that hurts my heart, I know that it hurts God's more, He loves every single one of His creation with a love we can't even begin to understand! So many, even among Christians, love the world more than the Kingdom, as is evidenced by their fear of death and the mindset, even in believers, of life (quantity of years on earth) at any cost. Why? Our time here is just the blink of an eye, just a tiny speck in an eternity that is bigger than the universe. Whether we are called Home when we're 40 or when we're 90, isn't going Home what it's all about? Working for the Kingdom (not our 401K or our retirement or a bigger house and 2 cars) while we're here, and when our work is done, to be rewarded by an eternity spent with the One we love and serve...there is great comfort in that!
That's what Jesus' words in John 17 are all about. We're here to share God's bounty of love, blessing, joy, and life with the world, but it's not about living here, it's not about prosperity or worldly success - it's about getting the job done and joyfully going Home, to the arms of our beloved Jesus, and taking as many as we can with us for He rejoices with every soul who finds its way home to Him. (See Luke 15) He doesn't want any of us to be lost: "...He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." (2Peter 3:9)
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." John 12:1-4 NIV
I have loved the world. I have lived for worldly reward. That is part of the human experience. If we have never seen the emptiness of a worldly life, we can't turn from it to the joy of a Christ-filled life. I praise God for the work He does through me now...I thank Him for the joy that stays with me as His Spirit lives within my heart and fills every pore of my being...I pray to be a vessel so He can use me...I offer up my body as a living sacrifice, living to be pleasing to God, not conforming to this world, but transformed (Romans 12:1-2)...and I look forward anxiously to the day when I can run into the arms of my beloved Jesus, the Source of all comfort.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Day 12...
...and finally feeling better. About 50% better in fact. Today I was able to play my keyboard for a while (not serious playing, since people were around, but enough to get it out of my system for the time being), go grocery shopping at several local stores - then come home and blog about it on my Cheap'n'Easy Low Carb blog, and prepare a nice supper of meatloaf, fauxtatoes, and salad. Tomorrow I want to take my house back from the clutter that has accumulated while I was down!
And this recovery isn't a moment too soon! I'd gone for 9 days without ever leaving the house, and only rarely leaving my recliner or bed. My birds got by on a lick and a promise, both in diet and in cagekeeping.
While I'm really thankful for my recovery, I'm feeling really badly for my wonderful husband, who did so much for me while I was down. Because now he's got the same flu that I had, and he has it bad. He's so miserable, and I know just how badly he feels, having just been where he is. The only thing that I'm thankful for is that he got started on the Tamiflu within the first 18 hour of his symptoms...so I'm hopeful that he will have a short run of it.
My seasonal job has ended for the year, I've got lots of plans (fall cleaning and reorganization that will probably take us straight through the winter!) and things I want to do around my home, and of course am looking forward to getting more hours babysitting that adorable, funny, smart grandbaby of mine, and lots of time with my great kid Casey too!
And this recovery isn't a moment too soon! I'd gone for 9 days without ever leaving the house, and only rarely leaving my recliner or bed. My birds got by on a lick and a promise, both in diet and in cagekeeping.
While I'm really thankful for my recovery, I'm feeling really badly for my wonderful husband, who did so much for me while I was down. Because now he's got the same flu that I had, and he has it bad. He's so miserable, and I know just how badly he feels, having just been where he is. The only thing that I'm thankful for is that he got started on the Tamiflu within the first 18 hour of his symptoms...so I'm hopeful that he will have a short run of it.
My seasonal job has ended for the year, I've got lots of plans (fall cleaning and reorganization that will probably take us straight through the winter!) and things I want to do around my home, and of course am looking forward to getting more hours babysitting that adorable, funny, smart grandbaby of mine, and lots of time with my great kid Casey too!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Day 8 - Is It My Imagination, or...
...are the glands in my neck a little less swollen today? Still have headache, stiff neck a little better, pain around my back and ribs a little better, still have sore throat, lack of appetite, feel drained and achy.
I did eat some delicious "breakfast fish" that Pete made, not because I was hungry but because I love breakfast fish. And I did play my keyboard for a few minutes, just a couple of songs, because I miss it...but sitting on the bench was too tiring for any more than that. I'm incredibly bummed that I won't be playing for church tomorrow - or even going to church tomorrow - since I enjoyed my "debut" last week. I'm sorry that they have to use their canned music since so many people told me that they like my keyboard better...
But there are always blessings. I have no choice but to spend my days either in my recliner or in bed...but the view of the yellow, gold, red, and green leaves, with all of the evergreens outside of my window, I wouldn't notice so much if I were busy. Man can't make colors like this, and God is giving me the opportunity to admire His own handiwork in our lovely wooded neighborhood 100' above the lake. There's definitely something to be said for stopping for a while to spend time at quiet pursuits, drawing near to the Lord, and, even with the flu, getting a break from the sometimes-frenetic pace of life.
I did eat some delicious "breakfast fish" that Pete made, not because I was hungry but because I love breakfast fish. And I did play my keyboard for a few minutes, just a couple of songs, because I miss it...but sitting on the bench was too tiring for any more than that. I'm incredibly bummed that I won't be playing for church tomorrow - or even going to church tomorrow - since I enjoyed my "debut" last week. I'm sorry that they have to use their canned music since so many people told me that they like my keyboard better...
But there are always blessings. I have no choice but to spend my days either in my recliner or in bed...but the view of the yellow, gold, red, and green leaves, with all of the evergreens outside of my window, I wouldn't notice so much if I were busy. Man can't make colors like this, and God is giving me the opportunity to admire His own handiwork in our lovely wooded neighborhood 100' above the lake. There's definitely something to be said for stopping for a while to spend time at quiet pursuits, drawing near to the Lord, and, even with the flu, getting a break from the sometimes-frenetic pace of life.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Remember Last Saturday...
...when I talked about being sick? Well here it is, one week from when this horrible bug hit...and I still have it. Not the after-effects of it, no, but rather the bug itself. I STILL have a sore swollen throat. The glands in my neck are so big that moving my head causes pressure and discomfort. Headache. Stiff neck. Pain in my back and ribs. Body aches. Chills. Sweats. Lethargy. No appetite...the list goes on.
It started Friday, I went from feeling fine to totally miserable within a couple of hours. Saturday was worse than Friday. Sunday was worse than Saturday. Monday was worse than Sunday. Tuesday was worse than Monday - by this point I didn't think I could get any worse! Wednesday, no worse, but no better. Ditto Thursday and today...
I'm so sick, and so tired of being sick...
It started Friday, I went from feeling fine to totally miserable within a couple of hours. Saturday was worse than Friday. Sunday was worse than Saturday. Monday was worse than Sunday. Tuesday was worse than Monday - by this point I didn't think I could get any worse! Wednesday, no worse, but no better. Ditto Thursday and today...
I'm so sick, and so tired of being sick...
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Something I never thought would even cross my mind...
It shocked me when I was looking around online yesterday and realized that I was considering a new keyboard! I thought I'd never see the day when the honeymoon would come to an end with my PSR-9000Pro. And indeed, I still love it to pieces! No, I'm not considering a replacement, I'm considering an addition.
It is true that there is still much uncharted territory with my 9000Pro, which I've had for 2 years (plus 2 days, to be exact...although the first week I had it, I was so intimidated that I just looked at it and never turned it on). I've barely scratched the surface of its possibilities, and yet even with my rudimentary knowledge of the beast, it still manages to churn out some pretty impressive music. So no, I absolutely don't want to trade up. I just want to add up.
Part of my longing is based upon using my keyboard at church. It's the last of the big heavy sturdy substantive performer arrangers; it's a tank, and quality through and through. But that nearly-50-pounds of bulky weight is quite a load to remove from the stand, put in its protective wrap, strap to its very own dolly, down stairs, lifted into the van, lifted out of the van, back up more stairs, reverse the strapping and wrapping, perch on the keyboard stand at church, hook up the various cables...and then reverse THAT process an hour later...and again the following week...
So, while my budget won't allow for another keyboard for quite some time, I have started to dream again. I won't be able to afford the Tyros3 top-of-the-line arranger. But perhaps the PSR-S910...T3's cheaper but quite impressive cousin. More voices and styles than I'll know what to do with, and will record straight to a memory stick (my 9000Pro uses a floppy disk, if that tells you anything about its age) - but only 2 RH voices and 1 LH...I really love being able to stack up 4 total voices with my 9000Pro, and don't know if I'd feel cheated with the loss of a voice. I suspect I would, as I was often frustrated by an old Casio with only 3 voices.
Maybe the now-outdated-but-still-way-more-modern-than-the-9000Pro Tyros 2? A used model of course. People trade up to the T3, and while the market isn't exactly flooded with them, I have seen the occasional T2 for sale. Maybe not as new and shiny as the S910, but a big step up from my current model...
For now, it's all talk. It's a lot of money, and we have plenty of other uses for that kind of change. And my trusty 9000Pro is the last of its kind, and way more than adequate for my purpose. Yet, every couple of days I still find myself clicking my way to eBay...just to see...
It is true that there is still much uncharted territory with my 9000Pro, which I've had for 2 years (plus 2 days, to be exact...although the first week I had it, I was so intimidated that I just looked at it and never turned it on). I've barely scratched the surface of its possibilities, and yet even with my rudimentary knowledge of the beast, it still manages to churn out some pretty impressive music. So no, I absolutely don't want to trade up. I just want to add up.
Part of my longing is based upon using my keyboard at church. It's the last of the big heavy sturdy substantive performer arrangers; it's a tank, and quality through and through. But that nearly-50-pounds of bulky weight is quite a load to remove from the stand, put in its protective wrap, strap to its very own dolly, down stairs, lifted into the van, lifted out of the van, back up more stairs, reverse the strapping and wrapping, perch on the keyboard stand at church, hook up the various cables...and then reverse THAT process an hour later...and again the following week...
So, while my budget won't allow for another keyboard for quite some time, I have started to dream again. I won't be able to afford the Tyros3 top-of-the-line arranger. But perhaps the PSR-S910...T3's cheaper but quite impressive cousin. More voices and styles than I'll know what to do with, and will record straight to a memory stick (my 9000Pro uses a floppy disk, if that tells you anything about its age) - but only 2 RH voices and 1 LH...I really love being able to stack up 4 total voices with my 9000Pro, and don't know if I'd feel cheated with the loss of a voice. I suspect I would, as I was often frustrated by an old Casio with only 3 voices.
Maybe the now-outdated-but-still-way-more-modern-than-the-9000Pro Tyros 2? A used model of course. People trade up to the T3, and while the market isn't exactly flooded with them, I have seen the occasional T2 for sale. Maybe not as new and shiny as the S910, but a big step up from my current model...
For now, it's all talk. It's a lot of money, and we have plenty of other uses for that kind of change. And my trusty 9000Pro is the last of its kind, and way more than adequate for my purpose. Yet, every couple of days I still find myself clicking my way to eBay...just to see...
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Everybody says...
...this is what's going around now. You feel fine one minute, and within an hour you're flat-out SICK! That's what hit me yesterday. After work yesterday Pete and I left for our Friday night date night, the weekly AYCE fish fry. Sometime between the front door and the van I started to get a little sore throat. By the time we got there - some 15 minutes later - it was a full-blown sore throat. As we were eating I could feel my throat swelling, and the body aches started, along with a low-grade fever. On the way home I started with the chills.
Today I'm miserable. And I make a lousy patient, whining and complaining and moaning and whinging all the time...hey, I've always been one to share my feelings!
But I was to babysit my sweet grandson while my daughter was at work today. I am the built-in babysitter with her living here, but it still feels like my times with him are too few and far between, given that his grampa has claimed Fridays, Casey gets 2 days off each week, and she likes him to go to day care (because he loves going there to play with the other kids) one day a week...that doesn't leave many gramma days, as we call my babysitting time. Yes, he lives here so I see him all the time, but of course when his mommy is here, I stay out of the picture and let them have their time together...
Anyway, later today I'm having to give up one of my 3 babysitting days this week. I'm watching him play right now, while he watches the Saturday morning cartoons (I wish the Christian stations had cartoons every day, they have great messages for little kids!), wanting to cuddle with him but of course, being so sick...
Which brings us back to my own misery! My throat is swollen and hurts to swallow...every joint and muscle in my body aches...I have no energy...whine...complain...moan...whinge...
Today I'm miserable. And I make a lousy patient, whining and complaining and moaning and whinging all the time...hey, I've always been one to share my feelings!
But I was to babysit my sweet grandson while my daughter was at work today. I am the built-in babysitter with her living here, but it still feels like my times with him are too few and far between, given that his grampa has claimed Fridays, Casey gets 2 days off each week, and she likes him to go to day care (because he loves going there to play with the other kids) one day a week...that doesn't leave many gramma days, as we call my babysitting time. Yes, he lives here so I see him all the time, but of course when his mommy is here, I stay out of the picture and let them have their time together...
Anyway, later today I'm having to give up one of my 3 babysitting days this week. I'm watching him play right now, while he watches the Saturday morning cartoons (I wish the Christian stations had cartoons every day, they have great messages for little kids!), wanting to cuddle with him but of course, being so sick...
Which brings us back to my own misery! My throat is swollen and hurts to swallow...every joint and muscle in my body aches...I have no energy...whine...complain...moan...whinge...
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